i'm the strongest girl in the world!!!

today i felt damn moody and sad... dunno why... maybe dcoz of alcohol...
made me feel tipsy and wanna vent my feelings out... hmmm...
i just told someone... my best friend... zeeee~
he's the one who i trusted always and believed... he's my brother~
so i told him my everythings...
wad i happened this few years and my life...
after told him how was my feeling, i felt even more better than i kept inside my heart forever...
nw i'm doing some ellegal thing..
and it's going to morning now... hmmm... 5.41am...
i'm still blogging.. haha... hmm..

seriously... very enjoy my life now...
freedom... educate... family... frenz...
evrything i get... feel happy and proud...
coz i don't need him to balance my life or whole thing...
i can live without him too... i can do it!!! =)
i knw i can~ gambateh!!

i always strong~ always did everything myself~~ always stand up myself~~
sometimes i really feel proud of myself~ coz i don't need anyone help me to stand up~
haha... hmmm.. maybe i'm the one of girl which really strong... and can held any problem myself~
=) hmmm... i knw i can do it!! charlie tan!! i knw i can~!!!

sad~

baby u knw... sometimes i really blessed that u're by my side... coz u're always by my side and will give me some good advice.. and maybe i really like you... although i like you not more than my bf but i will try my best to love you more and give u my best.. i dunno why.. but.. now i just wanna tell u wad my feeling only.. im pretty down today... dunno why... maybe coz of him??

Sometimes i Thinked my passed.. maybe i was really stupid or noob... u knw... my passed it just like a shit.. parents don like n go his house hit me, he bought me a dog=shitzu then take back,he called the girl that she already love 6 years when sleeping my side..told her he miss her when he sleeping by my side.. he hit me... i did child abortion.. my dad and brother gonna fight with him

when chinese new year my dad don forgive me and i din passed my new year whole week just stay at his house and din't come down, just go out and eat awhile..can't go back home scaRe my dad hit me and scaRe my dad killed him coz my dad is got some mentol problem.. scaRe my dad and mom called police.. or my dad called somebody whack him..
u knw all these kind of things let me to not confident in love.. i afraid... afraid of many things..

already gone~

19 december... everythings change... till now.. 5 january~
i can't even forget his face, all of our memories, our passed...
seriously i miss him... but i knw i can't...
i can't find him.. coz i have to put down this relationship..
he's not the one of me..
i love him... but i can't really feel his respect, love and care..wad i wan??
simply and easy.. i wan you love me.. with ur true love.. within ur heart.. to treat me as a girlfriend..
it was not hard.. it just simply.. coz... but why???
i can accept everything u are.. but...
i really cant lying myself...
i have no feeling since u hit me...u knw...
hw much i love you... but!!!!!!!! u knw????
since i heard u and her's conversation hw hurt am i???? u knw tat kind of hurt???
u knw since i did _____ u knw how hurt am i?????? u knw????
u knw since when u hit me!!!!!! that kind of hurt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everything u did i can't even forget easily... coz u're used to be
i can't forget!!! really...
seriously i love you very much........... but i treat it in another way...
if you're mine u will be back to me... if not then not lar...
enjoy ur life and i will appreciate my life now...
i very enjoy my life and i love it...

act i have nth to say.. just... im pretty down...
dunno why... maybe listening to our song... if you're not the one... hmmm...
miss u.. really... but... i knw maybe u're hating me...
watever =)

i enjoy to be my OWN self nw... coz im freedom now..
i can do wad i like.. i can go where i wan... i can be fren with anyone.. great right?
hmmm i knw... times will made my feels fade away..
i trust it will... (times)...

but really sry... coz leaving u... sry....... sry......

mad day~

din hanging out today.. stay at home and rest...

i'm not really in a good mood today..

i just mad about someone who was irresponsibility and someone who loved to act stupid way!!!

he thought he was cool?? fuck off man!!

he was an idiot!! can he just don act cool and the stupid way to attract ppl to see him??

i just can't tahan wat he did~

oh my gosh~~!!! help me..

i really feel wanna vomit when meet him...

really likes to talk ppl bad things and happy for it...

does he knw wat's respect mean and ppl's feeling??

i bet he doesn't.. bcoz he has no brain..

sucks!!

by the way, my age is same with him.. but why his mind look like a child??

so childish...!! and he thought he was very cute at that moment??

haha.. he dunno that time he was look like a clown..

so ugly and funny...

aft that i told him: "is not funny at all"

u knw?? my feeling wass so awesome, seems like having a spa and relaxing!!

owhh.. really felt good at the moment..

but.. he felt maybe he was in Egypt that time.. hahaha...

the ice was keep melting..

nvm.. chill!!! calm down.. hehe... it just passed..

i should change to good mood now..

tomorrow.. my dear's birthday.. finally ^^

fast fast fast fast fast~~ come on clock~ turn faster!!!

i really can't wait for that time..

THE SHIP~!!! hehe... i'm coming~~ ngek ngek!!

okay, tat's all~

Exam Passed!!!!!!!!!

Wau~~ today really was a nice day for me..

u knw..?? i've passed my exam!!! i passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just 2 person of my class have passed!!!!!!!

im the one~ and chloe: my college best buddy~

i was really happy and i felt i can fly on the sky right now...

non-stop of studied and didn't get sleep that few days when exam coming, read read read and write write write!!

it was so stress!! and i really work hard for this!! finally.....

i knw i will pass!! and i did it!!!

congrats to myself~ hehe ^^

and for those who are failed, i hope you all really have to study hard again for the resit exam and get good result in all subjects~ really wish that u all will pass!!

u all have still very long time to prepare, hope u guys can work it out~

gambateh!! support u guys~

XD" actually i was really shock when i heard that just 2 person have passed~

1st is chloe, and dunno who is the 2nd.

i just trust myself and told myself im the 2nd~ and i did it!!

since i failed my paper when secondary school till now,

i didn't study for any exam till now..

SPM also~

coz i don believe it was value.

Chong hwa high skul, it was really influenced me alot..

i studied hard but i can't get good result..

i just had many negative thinking came out at that moment..

what the hell is that?? why i have to work so hard? for wat???

but nw i knw.. i was wrong.. bcoz we can't only read die book, we are lived,

and we have to use it, learn it and understand it..

then we don have to memorize all the answer and use our sentences and explain it..

this is the character of IACT college, haha..

but seriously, IACT is really a good college that i known, it's not same with other colleges..

by the way.. i really enjoy my college life.. ^^

watever those assignment or presentation is that many and maybe full my time, i really enjoy it and i have learned alot of things.

and my english is getting better and better..

i just afraid bout the group team members...

bcoz i hate that members who didn't contribute and din't work with us...

they thought they are director, we are theirs employees..

and ask us to do this do that... but, he did nothing!~!

stupid idiot, fuck off!!!

okay, that's all the story about my college life of today..

anyway~~ i passed!!!!!!!! wakakakakaka~

really happy and going to crazy!! ^^

my dear hubby.. kit..

ur birthday coming soon~~~ 2 days more..

happy birthday to you.. my dear..

hope you happy and healthy always..

just wan to tell u that this 2 years really happened alot of things..

and turn and turn... we together again..

it was just like played a game. aikss..

hope nowadays.. you will change ur attitude and we'll love each other more and more...

我应该放弃吗...？

今天。。9月11日。。

发生了很不愉快的事情。。我很伤心。。我真的很心痛。。。我想放弃了。。。

宝贝。。你一定要这样对待我吗？？

难道暴力真的可以发泄你的怒气吗？？

她打给你。。为什么你骗我你不记得她的号码呢？ 为什么呢？

我不想想回以前的东西。。真的。。

很荒谬。。你在我旁边睡着。。。我以为你会感到幸福。。

怎么知道。。第二天你根她说的东西给我听到。。

和你真人真的是两个人你知道吗。。。？

你知道那种痛吗？？睡在我隔壁你竟然想着她！？？？

我听到你们说的话！！你叫我怎么接受的了？？！！

怎么接受的了！！！！！！！！！

直到如今我都不能原谅我自己为什么可以接受~！！！

为什么要承受！！ 为什么！！！ 为什么要承受这些痛！！！！

你真的是我的宝贝吗？？ 我真的想不到你会这样对我。。

突然拿刹那。。。你真的很像陌生人。。。

我很怕。。

为什么你会一直变的呢？？

我很累了。。我不想再追着你后面跑了。。

我想休息了。。跑了那么久。。也该停了吧。。

今天，你向我说你一定会记得在车上你扯我我甩你的那一刻。。

我该说什么呢？？

我好想对你说。。我也永远不会忘记的东西。。

你打我。。你巴我。。你喊我。。

每次的那些时刻我永远都忘不掉。。。

宝贝。。我知道我真的很爱你。。。可能爱你胜于我自己。。

但是为什么我却看不到你对我的爱呢。。

你给我的印象感觉仿佛只有满满的泪水和伤口。。

我不想这样。。我要的是你的疼爱而不是。。。就只是简单的疼爱可以吗？？

我是女生我也需要你的疼爱和保护阿。。

你可以不要再这样对我吗？

我求你好吗。。。

我自问我的出生不是美满的但我很幸福因为我有现在的父母收养抚养我长大。。

还有我做错的事情。。不可原谅的事情。。

我也撑到现在。。我自问不容易！！

我觉得我已很了不起了。。

换作于别人。。他们能承受的了吗？？

我只是想过些开心美满的生活，你给到我吗？？

简单温暖的疼爱疼惜。。不能吗？？

New Sem~

hehe.. just made a new blogg.. happy ^^

hope this new blog will bring good luck to me~

tomorrow~ new sem again~

study again~ assignment again~ fight result again~

hope this sem i will get good result in all subject~

i knew that maybe maygan will fail four of us..

and call us meet her.. aikss...

nvm~ i just have no feel~ it was passed~ i don wanna to think about it anymore~

headache~ and im not really rmb the things~

nvm~ it's okay~ as she likes~ i have no idea~

nth special things happen today~

just has some argue with him just now~

forget about it~ hehe~

his birthday coming soon~ 18 sep~

i will prepare a ANG PAO and treat him some nicee food!!

hope he will happy and love me more than now~ ^^

hope that day i will give him a unforgetable day~

黄伟杰。。我的宝贝老公兼爱人~

10月14日就是我们两年纪念日~

好开心哦。。两年叻。。难得。。

我只想永远待在你的怀抱。。不放手了。。

我爱你。。很爱很爱你。。